Journey in PhD - Think Twice

World Cup 2010

2010-06-13T17:38:00.002+01:00

World Cup come again.South Africa...exactly on the 11th June ...what a coincident... favorable team..England..

CIB The Lawry

2010-05-15T07:16:00.004+01:00

Alhamdullilah

Today I feel very relaxing for the first time of my weekend days after presenting my conference paper a couple of days before. Playing golf as usual actually.

Three days was taken to finish my slides of presentation, which was very frustrated at the beginning when my supervisor didn't think that my paper will reflexes my study on similar topic. No hope for any responses he said. However things have turned the other way round that day. Received several emails and comments which I was not expected from the audiences.

Imagined representatives from 50 different countries around the world. The Manchester Old Traford's Gala dinner was so amazing, crowded with VIPs from UK constructions industries. Practitioners and academicians seems like having fun, like an old friend gathering . I 've met with some guys from France, Netherlands, Findland, Melbourne, Otago, and of course from Malaysia as well.

Mercy-mercy....

compromise

2010-04-28T15:42:00.002+01:00

Lots of times you have to pretend to join a parade in which you're not really interested in order to get where you're going.

Raya 2009

2009-10-13T10:37:00.002+01:00

Assalamualaikum

wahhh...lamanya dah tak tulis dalam blog ni....inilah kesannya bila ada satu lagi laman web iaitu FB yang memang laju dan boleh dapat cerita2 yang up to date bila2 masa..memang kalau tak tengok FB sekali sehari memang tak sah..

Tapi hari ni aku bukan nak sembang pasal FB...aku nak cerita sikit pasal suasana Hari Raya 2009 di Manchester ni.

Memang meriah...itulah yang dapat aku gambarkan pada korang. Kalau di Malaysia, suasana meriah mungkin dari pagi Raya sampailah tengahari. Sebab kan cuaca panas. Nak berjalan walaupun naik kereta di Malaysia, terasa cepat penatnya.

Tapi di UK ni lain sikit. Sejuk-sejuk "dingin subuh" sepanjang masa. Memang tak berpeluh. Hari Raya pertama dalam hujung-hujung musim summer adalah waktu yang memang best untuk beraya. Cuaca sinar mataharinya menyerlahkan seri baju kurung sesiapa yang datang beraya. Masing2 nampak cantik dan anggun. Masing2 nampak segak dan bergaya.

Kebetulan tahun ni ada 8 rumah terbuka pada Raya pertama di kawasan terdekat. Belum lagi yang buat rumah terbuka pada Raya kedua, ketiga, kelapan, kesepuluh. Memang meriah.

Makanan pulak semuanya macam yang ada kat kampung. Kalau belah Johor, Johorlah. Kalau utara, utaralah, kalau Pantai Timur, Pantai timurlah. Sambil makan, topik perbualan tak lain mesti sembang pasal hal2 semasa di sini dan jugak di Malaysia. Ada pulak yang ambil kesempatan memperkenalkan diri jika ada yang baru sampai, ada jugak yang sempat tolong kempenkan calon2 AJK MCCH tahun depan.

Kesimpulannya, suasana tetap sama meriahnya, walaupun jauh dari keluarga tersayang di Malaysia. Tapi entahlah, jika ada jugak yang bersedih.

Oklah tu....

Yang Pahit Tapi Baik

2009-02-01T21:30:00.009Z

Aku akan sentiasa rasa bangga dalam seminggu dua ini. Kenapa pulak aku bangga? Sememangnya aku bangga sebab aku telah berjaya menempuh satu lagi cabaran yang aku tidak jangka akan kesannya pada diriku sendiri. Tarikh Jumaat lepas merupakan hari yang bersejarah dalam hidup aku. Bagi orang lain aku tak tahulah, tapi hari tersebut memang akan aku ingat sampai bila2.
IPGRC 2009 telah berlansung dengan jayanya, penyampaian setiap kertas-kertas konferens telah berlansung dengan lancar dan BERSEMANGAT sekali.
Mana datangnya semangat ini? Kisah ini bermula dengan tak pasal-pasal sejak kami kena hantar abstrak untuk kertas konferens anjuran BuHu 2009 di The Lowry, Salford Quay http://www.irw.buhu.salford.ac.uk/2009/Main.htm Sejak itu proses penyediaan dan penulisan kertas selalu menimbulkan tekanan sehingga ada yang melakukan perkara-perkara yang melucukan seperti kembara menangkap ketam di Bangor lah dan ada juga yang melibatkan diri dalam menaikan keperihatinan dan reaksi orang Melayu Manchester disebalik Perang Palestine di Gaza lah. Di tambah pula dengan ada yang sering di terjah oleh Supervisor bertanyakan pasal methodology dan power point tak cukup pointnya. Ada pulak yang tak cukup motivasi dan ada jugak yang tak cukup sokongan supervisor. Hai, macam-macam hal.

Tapi semuanya terjawab apabila tibanya hari presentation, hari yang ditunggu-tunggu oleh semua orang. Bila tengok orang present, macam-macam gaya pulak yang keluar.
Ada yang keras tegak pegang rostum tanpa memandang audience, garang je bunyinya..
Ada pulak yang tersasul tercakap melayu, "baik..baik..",
Ada yang berjalan sambil bercakap,
Ada jugak yang steady je sambil dipuji Chairman,
Ada yang resah pada mulanya, tapi ok bila nak hujung-hujung
Ada yang senada je suaranya macam baca text ucapan berita TV
Ada yang banyak sangat aummm nya
Ada yang keras suaranya sambil body languagenya yang terover acting ibarat menari-nari
Ada yang rasa tercekik sampai suara tak keluar..(itu akulah)

Tapi yang sebenarnya kita tabik pada semuanya kerana masing-masing nampak begitu berSEMANGAT dari awal hinggalah akhir program tersebut. Rupanya pengalaman "pertama" sebegini, sememangnya perlu dilalui oleh setiap Phd student. Bukan apa, pada masa inilah kita sedar yang kita telah diperhatikan oleh supervisor secara dekat (sampai gabralah) dan mereka pula tidak lansung mendown-gradekan student-studentnya bahkan puji lagi dan bersikap positif selalu. Ini yang patutnya kita contohi bila balik Malaysia nanti.

Itulah yang pahit tapi baik sebenarnya.

Kisah terbaru Kami

2009-01-08T15:00:00.003Z

Kami dah pindah rumah baru...rumah lama kami dah serah balik ke Amir Salam, tarikh masuk rumah kami ialah pada 1hb November 2008. Tuan rumah yangbaru, Mr Nawaz, nampak ok dan baik orangnya. Dia gantikan dapur gas yang baru dan jugak tombol pintu masuk rumah kami. Selesa sikitlah kalau dibandingkan dahulu, kami sewa rumah ini dengan harga £480 sebulan. Agak mahal kalau dibandingkan dahulu, kalau dulu cuma £380 aje sebulan. Empat bilik dan dapurnya yang agak besar, sudah cukup membuatkan Lili berasa puas hati. "..nanti bolehlah kita isikan perabut yang beli dari ebay pelan-pelan" katanya bila tengok tuan rumah bersungguh-sungguh nak kami tinggal di rumahnya.

Dua bulan dah berlalu...nampaknya kami sudah serasi dengan keadaan rumah kami ni. Cuma Hj Farid sekeluarga yang menjadi jiran terdekat kami. Agak jarang jugak Hj Farid menjemput kami ke rumahnya..mungkin sibuk sangat kut, lagipun, kami kami pun mempunyai aktiviti harian yang agak tak sesuai masanya untuk menjengah kerumahnya itu. Kami pun sebenarnya sama jugak, jarang menjemput beliau sekeluarga datang ke rumah. Tapi kami tahu Hj Farid hatinya baik dan dia pun tak kisah sangat...memang adat berjiran begitu, selalu jugak kami terserempak dengan Hj Farid masa sama-sama hendak hantar anak masing-masing kesekolah pagi-pagi...apa lagi, kami cuma angkat tangan jelah sambil geleng kepala.....kelakar jugak sebenarnya....

Cuaca yang sejuk sangat baru-baru ini memang mencabar kehidupan kami di bumi Manchester ini. Tidak pernah pada tahun-tahun sebelum ini suhu sejuk boleh jatuh hingga sampai - 10 Celcius. Beku, air batu dimana-mana kat luar sana. Kadang-kadang sejak tiga empat hari ni, salji tebal mula turun pada tengah-tengah malam. Dalam rumah pulak, tak boleh sangat bukak central heating sepanjang masa. Tahu-tahulah nanti bil gas dan letriknya melambung pulak. Tapi kadang-kadang tu, kena buka jugak sampai berjam-jam...eeeeee...manalah tahan sejuk ooiii...nanti dapat sakit pulak....kesian kat budak-budak sebenarnya. Sekarang ni, kalau anak-anak kami hendak makan apa-apa sebab cepat lapar, kami terus masak je. Makan dengan anak-anak ni memang seronok. "Apa lagi, naiklah berat badan ni, tak seksi lagilah body ni.." kata Lili...hahaha

Bagaimana keadaan cuaca, keadaan ekonomi Uk jugak jatuh secara mendadak. Ini semua berikutan keadaan ekonomi dunia jugak yang jatuh teruk. Credit Crunch, itulah perkataan yang disebut-sebut orang putih sini setiap hari. Semua kedai-kedai barangan branded yang nak ditutup semuanya terpaksa memberhentikan beribu-ribu pekerja-pekerjanya. Ada jugak bank-bank yang menutup cawangan-cawangan mereka, sebab business activities di kawasan-kawasan mereka banyak yang gulung tikar. Laporan terbaru, GBP sterling jatuh berbanding matawang Euro sampai 96 pence untuk 1 Euro. Satu cerita yang tak biasa kita dengar. Apa-apa pun kami doakan keadaan ekonomi Malaysia sentiasa diuruskan dengan baik.

Percutian krismas adalah yang terbaru dari kami. Kami telah akhirnya sampai di bumi Scotland pula. Mulanya tak yakin dengan kereta Ford Mondeo 95Auto 1.8 kami tu, tapi ok jugak rupanya. Alhamdulillah , seronok dan hati puas bila tengok permandangan dan bandar-bandar utama seperti Glasgow dan Edinburgh dan jugak Newcastle. Semua gambar-gambar ada dalam FB kami. Ramai jugak kawan-kawan yang komen gambar-gambar tu. Kami ketawa , geli hati bila sebahagian dari komen-komen itu, terkejut yang macamana kami tiba-tiba boleh sampai ke St Andrew, pusat golf terkemuka bertaraf dunia yang menjadi idaman setiap pemain golf untuk berada di situ. Apa nak buat...memang rezeki kami..insan terpilih..... hehehehe....

Sekali lagi, memang betul kata orang, semakin jauh perjalanan semakin luas pengetahuan..Lepas ni apa pula ye....

Selamat Pengantin Baru

2008-10-04T23:15:00.002+01:00

Selamat Pengantin Baru buat dua orang adik aku yang kahwin serentak pada hari ini. Majlis di rumah kampung aku kabarnya sangat meriah dengan kedatangan tetamu yang tua muda serta yang jauh dan yang dekat, yang kenal dan yang tak kenal..Memang kesemuanya datang ke majlis yang agak sudah lama tidak dibuat.... sejak majlis perkahwinan aku. dulu. Kali ini majlis berjalan lancar seperti yang dirancang dari mula lagi.

Cuma kali ini adalah lebih berbeza dari tahun2 yang sudah....IBU dan ANIS pergi buat selama-lamanya....aaahhhh rindu betulah......aku redha....cuma kekadang ...apa yang supervisor aku cakap..yang rindu jugak boleh melalaikan kita dan kita harus tak boleh memikirkan soal urusan Allah dengan si mati lagi.

Di kau pergi tanpa pesan

2008-09-03T14:40:00.002+01:00

Assalamualaikum.

Hari ini sudah masuk hari kedua adik ku yang bongsu meninggalkan dunia ini. Perginya dia dalam keadaan tenang dan pilu. Pergi kerana Allah sudah tetapkan tarikh dan detik waktunya untuk tinggalkan semua orang yang hidup di bumi ini, termasuklah aku, abang sulongnya. Semua yang mengenali datang menziarahi mayat adik ku, tapi tak termasuk aku. Kenapa? Kerana aku sekarang berada di tanah orang asing, di bumi bertuah, seperti UK ini terlalu jauh nak aku terangkan.

Alahai, adik, kesian bila abang dengar yang kau terlalu rindukan arwah ibu yang dah lama takda. kesian abang dengar bila kau ditimpa kesusahan tapi kau tak dapat nak ceritakan pada abang apa masalah kau. kesian abang rasa bila kau sering dipersalahkan bila kau tak dapat memenuhi kehendak ayah dan semua orang. kau tahan semua tu, kau sabar dengan cara kau sendiri. Akhirnya..terjawaplah persoalan, kemanakah akan kau pergi dalam hidup kau....akhirnya..Allah dengar doa kau....akhirnya kau pergi meninggalkan kami... tanpa pesan..

Abang akan teruskan cita-cita kau dik, abang tahu abang tak kuat semangat macam kau tapi abang akan usahakan ia juga. Selebihnya biar Allah yang tentukan.

Abang akan selalu doakan agar roh mu akan dicucuri rahmat dan semoga kau berada di sisi ibu kita ye dik.

Sekian
Abang

My advisor

2008-08-19T23:53:00.002+01:00

I am sorry. I think I a little bit busy at the moment. Busy with writing most of the time. Always, the thing that make me sick (US terms for getting fed up) is when you don't know how to end this work like professional writers. Maybe the best thing to do first is not to giving up easily. Try and re-try writing again.

Malaysia perjalanan

2008-07-16T23:27:00.003+01:00

There are so many things happening in Malaysia at this moment. Politics, food crisis, oil crisis, subsidies, police, Anwar Ibrahim etc..
Something concerned me was, how the communities who live in the rural areas, far away from anything..like in sabah and sarawak...do they cares about all those things...

Ajk.mcch 2008

2008-06-17T07:05:00.002+01:00

Tonight is the first meeting of a new administration line up team of MCCH group. As a new member of the community who just arrived from Malaysia, it is advisable to get along with the rest of Malaysian community members. Otherwise you will be "left behind" and "nobody" will cares either of you or your family.... I believed thats how things work around here. So you must maintain your PRs and for me, its all just part of my Phd journey here in the UK.

During the election day...I was little bit shocked when someone said.."Congratulations Hairul, you have been selected to be one of the AJKs for this year...good luck aahh"

..."whats happening here..should someone who much more better socializing than me should be selected..and not me instead..."....ayoyoyo...I said to myselflah

I think you all know a little bit better than me..about myself..aren't you.

Birthday

2008-06-11T08:25:00.002+01:00

Hey , today is my birthday....I'm 34 now.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.....

Thanks to every body who reminds me the date of my first time came out to this world. Especially to my wife, Lilinieta....I don't think I can managed my life without her. She completes me......

Thanks also to my new friends in UK, you all are totally something....

Finally....syukur Alhamdullilah...to Allah...ya Allah..syukur atas nikmat Mu..berkatilah umur kami..jodoh kami...rezeki kami...ilmu kami...kesihatan kami..dan sillaratulrahim antara kami...Amin

Landlord and Tenant in Cheetham Hill

2008-06-05T07:26:00.003+01:00

Three days ago, my friend and I went to visit a Malaysian friend's house who said to be harassed by his landlord a few times whose knocking and shouting hardly at the front door of my friend's house.

Earlier,(my friend starts his story) the Landlord has been told by somebody that my friend was going to move out from the house without notice. So, with anger he bang my friend's door a few times. Once it opened, he shouted at my friend's face telling that the tenant are not allowed to end the fixed term tenancy during the tenancy period.

Without Salam...without asking the right story of my friend (the tenant) situation, without considered the human manners, the landlord shouted that he do not want to further argue with the tenant...."no point argue with you...don't you think that I'm stupid....if you still want to get out of my house..you have to pay me the whole rental up till the end of year.... and bare in your mind that I would find a solicitor in this case..." told the landlord to the tenant.

The tenant has nothing to say.....he just closed back his door...leaving the landlord standing out there with no answers. The tenant has never tought that his landlord will acted in such way minutes ago.

So....what should we do if we confront with the same situation?

Omputih speaks

2008-05-04T20:12:00.005+01:00

“A day off work” – a day when you don’t go to university eg because you have to get your ebay's item, or because you are sick. You can ask your supervisor, “Please can I have a day off tomorrow”.

“A long weekend” is when you take a day off on Friday, or on Monday, or even on both Friday and Monday, in order to have three or four consecutive days when you do not have to work. We can say, for example, “I am going to take a long weekend and go and visit my best friend in Amsterdam”.

“A break” means a short holiday. “A weekend break” is when you go away just for the weekend.

That is all guys....English words for this weekend.

Friends

2008-04-29T22:20:00.003+01:00

The best thing about being around with people who cares about you is unexplainable and Allah knows everything. Especially when you really need somebody to share the good and the bad things about your life and your doing things.
Of course, I am talking about my friends, who else....friends.... can makes you laugh and occasionally can makes you upset with everything.
Think twice actually is very glad and very greatfull to having such a good PhD friends like Rodzi, Othman, Kak Ila, Anis, Baya, Ida, Mastura, Illa and not to mentioned the neighbors. I hope the friendship among us will never deteriorating and always united in this memorable journey.

mission almost started and failed

2008-04-13T17:36:00.003+01:00

Today,"think twice" has gone to several CBS in the area. It was quite amazing journey. Although the weather was not so promising, lately raining heavily in the day and shining towards the evening, the adventure must go on. However, things was not happened smoothly as planned.

Preparation........an online meeting has been organized a night before, just to make sure that everything is under control and the journey would be more pleasant, by the way, this arrangement is totally meant for the heads of family only. Three closes est family have been agreed to make a history of their life. The meeting was adjourned at 1205 am.

Fastest route, shortest route.....travel via....errr..where are we going? .....oooh Chelford CBS...the 2nd largest in the UK...at the moment..the feeling , there was a full of excitement, five members in a group with one shuttle and one smile...
The route was so amazing..the landscape with sheep's and horses...wow..what an outstanding country view...

"You have reached your destination"...Erra in TTom. The 35 minutes driving finally reached the spot, however what we have been expecting was not there. We came out to the right field, but there was no CBS, it was last minute canceled due to the wet field. Only lots of sheeps scattering in the field. How frustrating it was indeed. We managed to photo ourselves at the main entrance, just to make sure that we can take the situation easy...hahahahaha ."takpa"...very funny.

The only CBS spot we have found was at the one mile distance from the original Chelford CBS field. It is more like a Sunday market than a CBS.

Finally, our journey home was from Oldham CBS spot. It was the 5th and the last CBS spot we have covered throughout the "longgg" way trip. TTom devise has "proven" that it is the best thing next to you and do not go anywhere without it.

Today was not fully a lucky day for our host ( the shuttle owner). The best thing about him is that, he can still give you a big smile in whatever condition. Thank you very much to Mr. Owner of the shuttle and also to Mr. 2nd navigator with assistant.

What "think twice" think about today project was, it so enjoyable, funny, a bit disappointing, and a lot of grateful(especially, when to answer the wife at home).

Thank you..
p/s Looking forward to the next project next Sunday.

mumble moments

2008-04-06T19:14:00.002+01:00

This was in Swansea...heyyy where are the kids?

2008-03-16T13:01:00.002Z

Last week,7 of March I got a cut on my leg that I thought if i leave it to myself and treat the cut myself, I won't bothered anybody. Couple of days later, it won't so bad until it turned me into a nightmare. I just can't stand the pain anymore. I have to rush to the nearest hospital and got my treatment.

Today, I can barely sit and standing up again. Even I went to the CBS just to make sure myself released.

It has been a week since I haven't touched anything on my PhD matters. I have to delibrately do it because I want to clear my mind from the pressure I am having during the past two months. So now I need to start continue with the PhD again. Unless this time the process would be more specific.

2008-03-11T10:27:00.005Z

Keywords
1) Ripple Effect (Gaddes - 1915)
2) Sustainable Communities
3) Complex Adaptives Systems
4) Fm as Social and Community Enterprise
5) Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR)
6) Agents of Regeneration
7) DTI objectives on future organization development
8) Community-based FM

2008-03-01T22:51:00.001Z

2008-03-01T07:58:00.004Z

Good Morning,

Actually, from the handbook, it says that do not overestimate or underestimate on phd focus, the write up, the supervisor's role, expectations and the distractions.

You are not going to change the world, you are going to experience the learning process of such phd research being conducted. Try to consider the main point on the contribution to the body of knowledge.

2008-02-29T16:57:00.003Z

My mission today is to look at again the articles that I have been reading for the past two weeks. I did not know what to do instead of thinking what should I do after the meeting with my Keith. The research topic seemed to be like to complex. I need to priorities the right area to be study.

So far there are so many things around me that makes me unmotivated. The question is, what should do about it?

2008-02-26T19:16:00.006Z

Bunga Seroja

2008-02-20T13:09:00.000Z

the direction of FM

today we discuss about FM conference....in Manchester...10th and 11th June 2008
the Fm contribution towards the performance of the building organization
discussion on what FM is all about.
discussion on the different ways of FM thinking
discussion on community / organization contexts of developing networking environment
discussion on the community way of thinking ,
discussion on why the softwares in FM doesn't work for buildings
discussion on keywords in FM that relates to community studies